Trust

Apr 4, 2019

2 min read

I have gone through a lot in my life. Stuff I’ve been very open about, to pretty much everyone. And stuff that is more private.

My life has had many ups and downs. Like everyone else I suppose.

But through it all my faith has gotten me through it all. And continues to do so today.

This does not mean my faith has been tested. This does not mean I’ve wondered if I even had faith at all. I’ve had self-doubt. I have questioned myself and, yes, even my God.

But I believe that’s all made me stronger. It’s all brought me a place where I learned to trust my Lord even more. Not so much trusting in myself, by in my creator. In a higher being, whom I know to be God.

And in doing so I have been able to battle whatever comes my way.

Trusting God doesn’t make everything go away. It doesn’t necessarily make everything “better” either. But what it does do is give me strength. Gives me peace even. And gives me hope that I’ll be ok. I’ll persevere whatever obstacle(s) is/are in my way or come my way.

It’s almost like a reassurance. A guarantee. A promise that despite my doubts, my fears, my insecurities, my flaws, my weakness, God (through Christ) has my back. He will never give me more than I can handle. He’ll never leave me nor forsake me. And in Him I will give my trust to. Even when I don’t always want to.

Saying “I trust you” when I was battling late stage ovarian cancer was my daily mantra, if you will. And in that trusting I got through it much better than I believe I could have ever gotten through it if I hadn’t trusted Him.

My life is full of uncertainty. Full of temptation. Full of difficulty. Full of pain even. But it’s full of grace, mercy, healing, comfort, forgiveness, laughter and so much love too. All that comes from God. That comes from trusting God instead of trusting my circumstances.

Whatever you’re going through I hope you will give God a chance…by trusting Him.

Whoever you are and wherever you are I hope you are well. 🙃❤✌🏾